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Failure or Success? By Jim Thornton 10th March 2006
Why am I so tired, and anxious all the time?
Why can’t I relax at all, and sip champagne or wine?
Why am I so miserable with sadness in my heart?
Why am I so lonely, detached, alone, apart?
I feel my life’s a failure, what have I achieved?
40 years to get here, frustrated and aggrieved.
I’ve tried and tried and battled on, just so I survive.
If I’m not happy in 40 years, what’s the point of life?
Shall I list my failures?, go on, do I dare?
Shall you see how bad I am, so useless, lame and bare?
Ok then, get ready, don’t say I didn’t warn!
Here it comes, one by one, you won’t have time to yawn!
As a kid I was a freak, that no one understood,
Hairy, spotty, pimple faced, a brain made out of wood,
Big nose, big ears, funny hair, the laughing stock all day,
Just because I had blond hair, they all thought I was gay!
Smelly feet, boney toes, monkey arms to boot,
Always coughing, runny nose, played a funny flute,
Purple track-suit, funny walk, bashed my head on posts,
Stuttering and shaking, just like I’d seen a ghost.
No matter what I tried to do, love I could not find,
All I got is ridicule, it just destroyed my mind,
I don’t know what I have to do, just to get some joy,
Nothings ever good enough, for any girl or boy.
I’ll keep my head down and make sure, I do just as I’m told,
I’ll concentrate on my exams, a certificate I’ll hold,
But after all that hard work, not a single A.
How will people see me now? More ridicule awaits.
And then I went to UNI, in 1 year I dropped out,
I still can’t be quite good enough, like others round about.
I’m unemployed, redundant, before I have begun,
Who will want someone like me, what man am I, or son?
Eventually I get a job, I know just what I’ll do,
I’ll work and work until I drop, earn money and love to.
Well work and work I surely did, Vice President became,
And money had I plenty, but love was just the same.
Outside everybody, saw a happy man,
But inside bare and hollow, empty, cold, a sham.
So drop I did, and 40, how many failures more?
I can’t get up, I want to sleep, just let me lie, and snore.
And then its often talked of, I never did believe,
That when we reach our lowest ebb, we will get a reprieve,
For at that very moment, just when all is gone,
God’s spirit flows within us, to make us newly strong.
It’s like a rush of energy, and love and wisdom too,
And total understanding, of what we’ve all been through,
And somehow I’m enlightened, about what is my life,
And somehow I just know I’m loved, and can be free from strife.
It’s like an angel woke me up, and taught me how to think,
And showed me things more clearly, and from life not to shrink,
And learn to trust, and see all things, with just a little mirth,
And don’t rely on people, to judge my own self worth.
And now I’ve come to realise, the successes in my life,
I’ve got two lovely children, and a lovely wife.
I found my way as best I could, with what I had been taught,
But my self worth was always there, although it, I had sought.
And if around they don’t show love, they judge you and condemn,
Does the fault lie there with you, or does it lie with them?
For if we listen to their fears and negativity too,
Then all their fears become our own, and I become like you.
But if we know down deep inside, that good we always are,
Then negativity bounces back, and me it doesn’t scar,
And then the giver has to think, just how they treat their brother?
If they can’t bring me down this way, they’ll have to try another.
Until they’ve learned their lesson, that good they’ll never feel,
By bringing other people down, judging ‘till they squeal.
And if around their blinded, to your pain and sorrow,
If they’re too pre-occupied with matters vain and hollow,
That they never notice the misery inside,
Never ask just how you feel, or care what is replied,
Never help you solve it, just say, “never mind”,
Never take some action, “it’ll go away in time”.
Then pity them for they are weak and what goes out comes back,
If they overlook all folk, they’ll always suffer lack.
And now I recognise all things, for exactly what they are,
Events in life aren’t good or bad, events in life just ARE!
But we will then interpret, based on our core beliefs,
If we think we’re not worthy, we’ll see all folk as thieves,
Who stole away our dignity, and made us feel so bad,
But in the end we choose our thoughts, so don’t be driven mad!
Believe that you are worthy, believe that you are loved,
Believe that there’s a plan for you, that comes down from above,
For we were placed upon this earth, to find our way to joy,
And learn how to create it, for every girl and boy.
To see the beauty, do our best, and trust in spirit too,
That to us, is revealed the way, when we believe its true,
And know that we deserve it, and know that we’re secure,
And listen with an open mind, follow our heart for sure.
And with each situation, what joy can you bring?
And when a sad thing happens, can you take away the sting?
And as you look at life with joy, your heart cannot be harmed,
And love and joy will fill your days, for life you’re always armed.
And as I’ve learned to love myself, then love I now can feel,
And as I trust in joyous things, opportunities reveal,
And as I’ve opened up my heart, and shared with all around,
Then share with me the others have, abundance now abounds.
And now I welcome every day, with joy and with no fear,
I know that I will do my best, each day, each week, each year.
With all my fellow people, who are the same as me,
One spirit does unite us, this life is harmony.
For now I understand it, before I didn’t see,
That everybody struggles, to find a way that’s free,
And yes, you must protect yourself, from those who haven’t learned,
To save your soul from running dry, your love from being spurned.
But on a higher level, learning we all are,
Pupil becomes teacher, but pupils we still are.
And now I feel so lucky, I’ve learned these things so well,
From every bad thing came some good, so strong I cannot tell.
So if we help each other, learn these lessons too,
Then we will find a paradise, heaven on Earth, it’s true.
For all that we could ever want, is here right now, at hand.
The knowledge that we’re truly loved, guided, safe, and planned.
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