Dr Tarona Gail Hawkins
Tue,13 Oct 2009
Dr Tarona Gail Hawkins
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They should have put Norma Jean on my tomb.Not Marilyn Monroe,said the hushed voice of Norma Jeans spirit. I never did like the name Marilyn.
This wasn't the first time Marilyn Monroe had made contact with me. Her first visit came in May 2007.
Convinced certain screen goddess had been doomed from birth by karma. My studies had taken a serious tone and i was determined to seek out the metaphysical reasons for their lives.
I had already done an in depth study of James Dean for a friend of mine who was writing a book about him.She asked me to try to find out if there really had been a curse on his car.
Although I loved Marilyn's hairstyle and admired her beauty. I have never been a big fan of hers.
However until she starred visiting me, I must confess to thinking her a little childish and perhaps a bit simple.
I have learnt over these last few years,there is more to Norma Jean than the cover of Marilyn Monroe.
Her visits started when I was deeply engaged in dates and numbers associated with her for the book i want to write. I became intrigued by my findings.Using my technique my research took me deep into her life and tragic death.Showing me the real person beneath the blond bomb shell image.
Through our many conversation she's furnished me with many more missing pieces that she never told anyone else about.
Marilyn later told me who really was responsible for her death and why she had to die so young.
One of the saddest things she told me was about her childhood.
Marilyn speaks
In life there are always scape goats and i learnt early in childhood,i was one of those.Although people think my life is well documented they are wrong.The publishers and movie makers tell you what they want you to hear,not the truth.
Not one book mentioned how i was groomed for sex long before i became a movie star.
Tarona asks
Is this because you were sexually abused as a child whilst in foster care?
Marilyn
No, I was put in foster care to be sexually abused. Many corrupt people were on the studios payroll.They knew about my Mothers mental health and how that could be used to put me away.
They had people in high places involved in dealing with displaced children.This meant the movie makers had a already supply of children who were groomed for kiddie flicks. At the time I didnt know any of this of course. It was only when in my teens I learnt how the system worked.
Many children were placed in foster homes deliberately,with known paedophiles,who would train up the children sexually before they were made to take part in porn movies.When the studios were done with these children they were either put in mental institutions,brothers or worse.
Foster kids like me who had a parent who was ill.Were given out to various foster homes. It would have been too risky to put a child like myself into one of the trainers homes. I did have people who would visit me now and again.So I would have been missed.
You must understand that times were very hard and very few genuine people wanted to give a kid a home.Those who really wanted children would adopt and not foster. My kind were just a meal ticket and a nuisance to the carers. We were given out to anyone who would offer us a place to stay.
Tarona
Are you saying all your foster homes were bad?
Not all, I did have some happy foster homes but not many.
The majority only took me in for the money and i often felt the outsider. I was the scape goat for the others and i would get the blame for everything.Everything that went wrong or went missing.My word counted for nothing.
Tarona
How do you mean?
Marilyn
Child abusers used the system to satisfy their sick desires.We were handed to them on a plate.No one listened and no one cared what happened to us.
My childhood was a unhappy mess and so was I.
Much as been written about the rest of Marilyn childhood.So I dont want to bore the reader by repeating whats already been told.
However its interesting to note.Within the first month of contact with MM.My life started to change.Some of the changes were darn right freaky.
Unbeknown to me at this time.Some one had put my name forward for a tv program.
I was sent an application saying the makers were looking for people with unusual hobbies and interests and would I be interested in going for an audition.
When I spoke to one of the researchers and she told me the show would be hosted by Donny Osmond, I said yes of course I was interested.
When I arrived at the tv studio in Manchester I went to reception.We had all been told prior to the show.Its top secret and we are not to mention what hobbies or talents we had to anyone. It was a game show and a lot of money was at stake.
All of the Strangers,myself included, had to stand on podiums on the stage.
The contestant had to identify who we were from the titles given us from the show.Plus we all had to tell a little bit about our self to the contestants if asked..
So there was no way any of us knew each other or what we did until we started rehearsals in a private room.
Just as we were about to be whisked away to the rehearsal room. In walked the living imagine of the spirit who had been communicating with me for weeks.
A Marilyn Monroe look a like.
I was gob smacked.
It was then I knew the real Marilyn had arranged this meeting.
One day I want to put all the true facts MM told me about her life into a book.If any publishers dares to print it that is.
I have gotten to know the real Norma Jean and we have become very good friends.
This morning I put on a tv show I never watch.It was about fostered children in USA today and the appalling truth of what is still happening.
I know Marilyn will approve of me writing this article and sharing some of our conversations with you.
For those of you who asked,why would Marilyn choose to communicate with me? The answer is, because I listened to her and i want to tell her story in her words,the truth. Plus one other thing,She likes me.
Many Blessings,
Dr Tarona Gail Hawkins now known as Gail
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